Valleys Are Inevitable
Dear Jesus,
Been ages since I last blogges to you. I seriously hate studying, O' Levels are merely 45 days away and my prelims aren't over yet.. ._. I know that I can't give up though...
Hebrews 12:3-4
3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.
You gave up so much for me, how can I just let it all go ? Not just studies that are currently bringing me down, but everything I do never seem to be enough . One sheep isn't stable no matter how much I try and the other doesn't even share her feelings and troubles with me ? However, I know I'm not God, I'm not the one who changes their heart .
1 Corinthians 3:6
6 I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow.
Who am I thought to say that they're imperfect ? I have yet to be able to fully love you with my all.. Everytime during worship I can't even fully fix my eyes on you, I always get so distracted . Most of the time I also don't directly recieve a word from . Faith isn't just a feeling, I know that but sometimes Lord, I just need more of you and I feel like that isn't happening... I really need more of your love, presence and joy in my life. I feel like I'm always an empty vessel and I can't rely on my human strength but I need more of yours . It's more comfortable to just be around all my brothers and sisters but I know, that's not the reason why I'm here . The reason why the church exist . We don't exist for ourselves but we're here to be your hands and feet and to meet the unmet need . I know one thing Lord, I still can give you praise because you never change, you're still faithful and you still love me ! Thank You Lord ! :') Though, I walk through valleys, I know that you're walking beside me and that there's nothing to fear !
